This footage is well old and one of my friends just sent it to me on Messenger. This is the boy, my son who many people believe will grow up to be identical to me. I can't see it some how haha !!
Tuesday, January 30, 2007
Since I have become a Clare my whole outlook on life has changed, it's simply amazing haha. This whole Clare thing is so lost in translation it's cracking me up. Anyway though please pull up a chair and take a seat. First I will start by stating that Nelly Furtado is the way at the moment. Her latest album has smacked it in my opinion and I will definitely be borrowing a copy from somewhere. Check out the song above, as with Clare's this song has a deeper meaning and I think it rocks out haha.
Work was good today although seemed really quiet, what amazes me is that I have one day off and so much seems to have changed. Why does that happen, who were all the new starters?!?! I just let them get on with it, being one of the senior members on my floor I should have taken more notice. Hmmm lets roll that back a little and being one of the SENIOR haha you know it. I will be running the company before long. Watch out my peers, your days at the company are going to become limited haha. Just watching the football at the moment and my friends at work said if they were to concede they would consider leaving. Still 0-0 fellas so all the best in getting your moneys worth x
Monday, January 29, 2007
Today was tough, when someone dies you expect them to have lived through their 'innings' having gone through all the experiences of life. Life is tough and it throws many obstacles in your way but when you lose someone close to you it's very difficult. Especially when that someone is a close friend, a sister, a daughter. Went to my friends funeral today and it felt sad knowing that I was once in a relatonship with this girl. Knowing that she once told me that she loved me made me feel kind of hollow. Listening to the words of her sisters paying tribute to her and then the words of her father made me break. When I went to my Grandads funeral before it was tough standing on my own and this happened to be another time I was left to my own emotions.
My childrens mum said that she would wait for me outside but she didn't and I had to stand in an aisle to myself. I think I am quite a strong character but in a funeral all sorts of perspective is thrown into context. For example in this case that of losing a sibling and also that of a child. Parents are not supposed to outlive their children and for me that was tough. I just needed someone beside me to hold my hand and squeeze it. Even my worst enemy would have down but if there is a God and a heaven I think I drew the strength from my friend. Okay so I am a very emotional person but whatever as I am writing how I feel not looking for sympathy.
Everything I felt went well, the tributes were a mixture of the pain felt and the laughs that she brought in her life. The wake was good and it really felt like a celebration of her life and when I eventually go I don't want one person to cry as it's not about that. When me and my friend eventually left we went to her father to say our condolences. I tried writing in the book beforehand but after a few drinks writing becomes impossible as does making sense so no idea what I managed to put together. Anyway, I felt that no matter what words I said to the father would matter so I just held him tight and kissed him to let him know how I felt.
Life can be long but also taken so suddenly, it's tough to know what is right and wrong and what direction to take but as long as you live how you want then that's all that matters. Don't let anyone tell you otherwise and don't let those that judge get you down. I know I am not so mines a double vodka redbull and a shot of sambuca and also what's my favourite song again...
Sunday, January 28, 2007
This is why I am now a Clare as I feel that Joe's have a lot to answer for and I feel for him. He is just a guy on a hook but he wants more now and with a girl tilt I want to show how people can get over their ex's. Are you following, excellent so now that you are all up to speed on that minor technicality I have realised that my fate now lies with the emu's, I like the eclipse as it makes me smile and also that camouflage and war paint wouldn't have come about if it wasn't for Panda's. Keep it real as don't go anywhere as although I am trying to read between the lines this is a whole new drawing. I like art though so the full picture is the WAY.........
Saturday, January 27, 2007
The good thing about the night was that my sister was out with us. An honourary member of the team haha. She mixed it up though and the girls loved her and where my sister's friends went 'missing' she is looking to come out with us more. My sister was telling me today we were doing some random dancing, I am sorry my dear but this part of the night I forget haha.
Was a well funny night though and there are so many people we know out and about now it's like thery pose ready for a photo when they see us coming haha. Got home reasonably quick and then got a call from MyFriend who I spoke to into the early hours. Not that, that pleased my brother too much, on the phone underneath him he said it was like I was in his bed the noise I was ,making. How little does he know...
Friday, January 26, 2007
Me and my friend went pub for lunch earlier and were randomly taking pictures of the world. Then it switched and we noticed how much affros seem to be popular these days. My haircut included haha. Some school kid was sporting a fairly sized affro and he took a picture, maybe to compare it with mine. No contest, mine is much bigger haha. The photo looks like something out of Michael Jacksons 'Beat It' though so we switched into Bo Selecta and walked about wearing one glove on each hand yelling 'Charmone' at each other haha. Tonight going to the usual places to have a usual night doing usual things. I love being usual !!
Thursday, January 25, 2007
Wednesday, January 24, 2007
Okay so onto the train journey and who would have expected that an inch of snow could cause so much disruption. Not London and I was stuck on Trains to work for the best part of two hours. It was tough and I felt like I had actually grown a beard the amount of time it took for the train to move. I get to work and have a headache morning, just couldn't figure out what the issues were as they appeared totally unrelated to previous issues. All good though as love a challenge until I spill my drink over my desk and flood everything, scrambling to shield my phone, PC and laptops. It was at this point I caught a 'glimpse of the future' and my day got so much better.
That was until I was almost at my childrens home when I got ambushed by bullys'. I can't stand people who use Racial motivation and there were six of them stood in a ring clearly drunk and the large one starts by instigating if I was being racist. What's the point as I'm just a casual Joe walking to my kids and then I hear 'Did you just call me a...' I'm thinking hear we go, I am going to get jumped here but the majority weren't interested just this one guy who must have just watched the Rocky Balboa movie. He was off it and not sounded hot headed but when you are that half cut then it's not going to take a rocket scientist to realise what would have been the outcome. So I tell him to stop showing off in front of his friends and lay off the drink a little as he's not proving anything. Not turning my back in case he pulls a knife of something. He does one better, he picks up a crate from outside a store and launches it at me. I have no idea why I didn't just sidestep at this point but I blocked it with my forearm into the road and it's hit by a car. Check me out but I am no Bruce Lee and I felt it and I think the fella then lost interest and went back to his friends and they all started laughing. I'm happy I made their day as well and just moved on as I lost interest as well.
Spent a short time with my children and although I would have liked to stay with them longer, something me and their mother discussed about my direction clearly wasn't received too well. Which leads me to question why people are so judging and also sets up the opportunity for me to drop this tune that I am well feeling at the moment...
Tuesday, January 23, 2007
I am on it at the moment have some feeling that you know is good but scares you all the same. Is it new, I would say yes as it's enabled me to put some things in perspective and bring closure but also motivation. I so need to get my act together purchased a shirt today and was reminded of the things that mattered. I am liking 2007 though and it's crazy how in such a short space of time things can change. Admittedly that sentence comes with it's ups and downs but I am on the accendancy and I am liking being 'smelly' x
Left my Chelsea ticket at home today so after work I had to mission home to collect it which was so much drama. Thanks to my friend who came and picked me up though as you saved me valuable minutes and after collecting the ticket and heading up West I was only a few minutes late. The match was quality as well and the whole stadium was like Shevchenkos heartbeat and how it hit home when he scored. I nearly fell off the tier jumping up so quickly and even more so when he scored a second and set up Frank Lampard for the first of his two. Final score 4-0 and looking good lets hope we can hit some decent form now. Thanks to my brother for sorting out the tickets. I annoyed him and his girl friend by pretending to go to sleep and rolling my head about like a derranged person. Got home, cooked food, spoke on the phone, left food to get cold, spoke longer, made bed, sent text, crashed out and slept.........