It is 650 days since me and my children's mother broke up, I haven't been counting before you think let go Joe as I used this site. That is a long time but she just doesn't appear able to be amicable at all as it's all about her and if she can't get her way it's strop on-breeze out. Today was same old story as the feet got stamped and up arises the same awkward situation. It's alright ruffling feathers but what she creates leaves everyone picking up the pieces it's frustrating and boring. Here's the scenario I want played by actors -
'Hey there, just ringing to see what the plan is with the children pal'
'Oh hello there, how's it going, what time do you need me to have them mate'
'As soon as possible if that's okay friend'
'I can be there in X minutes dude'
'Excellent friend, any sooner would be appreciated'
'Wicked dear !!'
Okay so the actors sound fake, at least it's a fair conversation though and direct. Anyway the above is boring but I have to vent. I'm still no further with the car plans but I am hopeful something will materialise soon. Been looking in Auto Trader although there always seems to be something wrong with the cars I pick out. The plan for me is to get a cheap run around and get my girl passed as well so that she can get about. Then down the line get a decent vehicle which is more reasonable. I'm always thinking at the moment and looking to push myself which really makes me feel alive.
Never have I had so much of an outlook as I do now, I am regretting not doing the Art course I got into in college a few years ago. Seeing my girl create her work is really inspiring and I would love to have her vision but alas I think I have lost what talent I was told I had as not done anything in a long time. Give me another roll of the dice and I know what numbers I would like to come up with hey.








It passed quite quickly and my friends daughter was an Angel as she was quiet through the service. So were our children as well, I was nervous that my son would yell something out and at one point he did come across like a heckler in the background but it went well. I went to the priest afterwards to acknowledge that I thought he had really made the day with the way he had conducted the service and he appeared flattered. From here we went to the party and spent a few hours here. Was good and it was a shame that we couldn't stay longer as the children were settled but we needed to get going as were heading out for a couple of hours in the evening. Was sad dropping my children off as they really created but it's something I've had to come to terms with over the last year although it doesn't get easier. Least it shows that if they leave me like that then they had a good time I suppose. Hopefully there will be a lot more occasions where we can go out with all the children. With me getting my driving license through today then a lot more opportunities are going to open up once I get my car...

